“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. I'll always be with you.”
~A.A. Milne, from "Winnie the Pooh"

Thursday, July 28, 2011

The Path Was Long and Full of Pitfalls

Dear sweet Liddy,
Today the doctors gave you the o.k. to head home tomorrow. Hallelujah! 



The last two weeks have been the roller coaster of a lifetime (and enough to last me one too!) full of joy, sadness, fear, whispered prayers, and yes, even laughter. I will be so overjoyed to put this all behind us as we walk out of Riley Hospital's doors tomorrow and start a brand new life. One without the threat of open heart surgery looming on the horizon. One with a broken heart now miraculously whole. 



There are memories from this hospital stay that I will never forget. Thankfully, you will forget it all in time. Daddy and I will be left to carry everything for you. I know that I am changed by this experience, just as I was by your birth. I can never return to the Mommy I was before we passed through these doors.
I have prayed more the last two weeks than I have ever prayed before. And not just for you. My prayer list has grown with every passing day. The words "You will be in my prayers" pass my lips more and more. The stories that I hear weigh heavy on my tender heart and I know that long after we are merely a faint memory in the minds of these other parents, they will still be in my thoughts.

I have always been so proud of you, and so proud to be your mommy. But the last two weeks, something else has emerged. I am proud of myself. I have faced down what seems to be a thousand demons, silenced some of my greatest fears, and grown more faithful. I have stood strong when I felt like falling apart. I have fought (and drove doctors and nurses alike crazy!) for you. I have heard the voice of God and have handed the thing most precious to me in all of the world into His loving care. Even when it was hard, even when I wanted nothing more than to hold you tight to me.....


He has proven that when I am faithful, He is as well. :) He has never once failed to return you to me, stronger than ever. 
Yes, the path was long and winding, full of pitfalls. But we, you and I and Daddy, are now standing on the brink of a whole new path. And I can't wait to see what it brings. :)




I love you.
XOXOXO, 
Mommy

8 comments:

  1. YAY for going home!! I contacted that Etsy seller to remind her- just making sure you sent her your address? I'm sorry she hasn't sent it yet! Kisses to Liddy :)

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  2. So glad that you're going home! But you're right. These experiences change us. Glad that you are able to be on the other side with so many positive and healthy emotions. So proud of both of you!

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  3. Yay for going home tomorrow! You've done well, Mommy.

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  4. Liddy, you look great! So happy to hear you will be heading home soon.

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  5. I followed you here from Patti and Lily. Liddy is absolutely precious!! Prayers for a continued speedy recovery!

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  6. I can't stand how cute she is!!! :-) So happy to hear that you all are going home.

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